Can we relish the same level of love for Krishna that Radharani relishes?
Chitra mahaprabhu has come to offer us tell us how to we can love krishna so he is experiencing the love of smt radharani so can we also experience that love if not why not actually there is completeness in the spiritual world so it is not that say when consider another pastime say in ram leela there is hanuman there is sita there is lakshman now ram has one kind of relationship with say sita and he has another kind of relationship with hanuman now hanuman doesn't feel that oh ram loves sita more and doesn't feel unfulfilled he doesn't think that i want to be sita so that ram will love me more he is he is completely fulfilled in his position so what it means is suppose so we talk about his five rasas shantaras dasya ras you know about this sakhi ras vatsala ras madhura ras so these and among which he said the madhura ras is the highest and in the madhura ras the gopila is the highest and that radharani's love is the highest so what does this mean actually everybody is complete everybody is completely fulfilled in their love for krishna at the same time there are levels of this love it's like compare there are say five glasses of water say one is say 200 ml another is 400 ml another 600 ml another 800 ml one is one liter 1000 ml now all these glasses are full they cannot take even one drop of water more so all of them are full from their own perspective they are completely full their fullness is nothing deficient in it yeah but from the let me complete this but from the perspective of an objective level we have the one liter glass as the maximum water so like that whatever is our eternal relationship with krishna in that relationship we will be completely fulfilled at the same time there are levels of intimacy which krishna has with different devotees and that is krishna's prerogative as a person now there are some devotees in some other vishnu traditions also they give an explanation why krishna has a flute why krishna plays only a flute why not a violin why not a guitar why not some other instrument why krishna has a peacock feather only why not some other bird's feather why krishna wears a pitambar only why krishna wears only yellow clothes now somebody may give some explanations esoterically for this but essentially the gaudiya vishnu acharyas have not given much esoteric explanations for this they focus krishna is a person as a person he has his preferences so why does he wear a flute why does he play a flute because that's what he likes why does he wear a peacock feather that's what he likes you know why does he eat butter only why not something else that's what he likes so it's his liking so if we understand that god is a person it is god as a person he has his likes now when he likes something that does not mean he doesn't like other things or dislikes other things it is just that he is a person and his personal preference is ornament his personality so from our perspective we will be completely fulfilled in our eternal relationship with krishna we will not feel oh why don't i love krishna as much as radharani we'll be satisfied in our relationship at the same time from krishna's perspective he sees that oh the kind of love that radharani has for me what is this love it is the highest love nobody has that love it's interesting that even the gopis they also don't feel envious of radharani they also feel appreciative because their whole whole in the spiritual world is to please krishna they say oh radharani pleases krishna the most then let us let us send radharani to krishna so in the rasa lila also which i just pointed towards however it is said that when the gopis became proud krishna left the gopis and went away but actually the gopis did not become proud the gopis they were simply thinking how fortunate we are how fortunate we are and yet they said they had the thought that actually all of us don't have the same level of love for krishna and therefore they wanted that radharani's love singular love be uniquely demonstrated for the world and that's why they acted as if they were proud and that's why what happened krishna left them and went alone with radharani so the gopis did not become proud the gopis simply acted as if proud so that krishna would leave them and go with radharani if krishna had been with all the gopis then all the gopis love would have been considered to be the equal of the same level but the gopis wanted the world to know that radharani's love is greatest that's why they left they acted as if proud and krishna left them and when krishna was with radharani and when radharani realized that krishna is only with me she initially felt such ecstasy oh krishna loves me alone and loves me so much but the next moment she started thinking but what will be the condition of laita what will be the condition of vishaka because they are my sakhis and being separated from krishna what will they feel and she said no i cannot enjoy krishna alone she thinks like that and therefore she thinks that krishna is taking her into the forest and she thinks let me slow krishna down and because krishna is rapidly going into the forest she wants that gopis will also be searching let the gopis catch me catch us find us and locate us and be with us again so therefore she tells krishna krishna this forest is i'm getting tired i'm getting tired how long do we have to walk so she basically acts tired so that krishna will slow down but then what happens when krishna krishna thinks that she has become proud and krishna says to her because this is a jungle i cannot get a palanquin for you so therefore you can just ride on my back and krishna bends down as if to get radharani to climb on her radharani is shocked she does not expect krishna to get angry and she is looking at him and right in front of her krishna disappears and radharani is devastated that krishna has left me and gone away and similarly when the gopis when they initially see that oh radharani oh that krishna has left us and gone with one special gopi they start feeling a little annoyed who is the special gopi with whom krishna has gone but when they finally find radharani radharani is swooned in agony in separation from krishna and when they see oh krishna has left radharani they all come around her they revive her and they console her so the point which i am making through all this pastime is that there is because krishna is the center and everybody wants to please krishna so by krishna's arrangement he has his preferences and nobody objects to those preferences everybody feels fulfilled perfectly in their role in krishna's leela in this pastimes so the grass in vrindavan in krishna's steps once on that grass that grass feels completely satisfied that grass doesn't think i want to be radharani to be constantly embraced by krishna and the gopis don't feel that they also don't feel that i want to be radharani so rather than trying to understand intellectually because we right now operate from a very limited material and self-centered perspective to understand how there will be perfect satisfaction in the spiritual world right now we can focus primarily on trying to absorb ourselves in krishna once we are absorbed in krishna we will ourselves realize that you know krishna is always available for me now in this world sometimes there are love triangles you know say there's one person and one girl and two boys love that girl then what happened that girl if she loves one boy she's not available for the other boy so then there is a conflict because of that but krishna is not like that no krishna can love you fully be fully available for you and despite making himself fully available to you he is still fully available to me and he's still fully available to everyone so krishna is not limited and that's why no matter of what is the nature of krishna's relationship with someone else even if their loving is let's say because of a higher intimacy than is ours we won't feel anything missing because krishna will be fully available for us and we'll be fully satisfied provided we are absorbed in him say if we are not absorbed in krishna we are saying hey what is krishna doing with them what is krishna doing with them what is krishna doing with them then we will be dissatisfied that is the material mentality the material mentality is what say today evening there's gaur pavanima after the festival there is going to be a feast but suppose it's a special feast where everyone is getting a distinct feast now you have a plate of prasad which is different from somebody else's and all of us have different plates of prasad but it's all feast all delicious items but instead of savoring our own feast we look oh he has got that oh she has got that and if we keep looking at others plates we will be dissatisfied although we have enough to be fully satisfied so rather than looking at what is in others plate we focus on appreciating what is in our plate so like that in the spiritual world because everybody is absorbed in krishna everybody is concerned with pleasing krishna so nobody feels any resentment because of any hierarchy that might be there in the spiritual world everybody is completely satisfied in their relationship with krishna does it answer your question.