Should we feel dissatisfied that we are not growing spiritually as fast as we should?

We humans are by nature, growth-seeking, wherever we are, we want to improve things. We want to improve things in different ways. But we all want to improve things.

We come and move into a home. We want to beautify the home. We want to visit a particular place.

We want to go and see the most beautiful places over there. So we want to improve the extremes around us. That’s natural.

But then, as I said, if that is all we are doing, that’s when it becomes a problem. So, we get our externals to a particular level of yukta-ahara. We have a particular level of functionality.

And then we keep some efforts to improve that. But that doesn’t become our driving force. And that’s when we turn inwards.

So, even in our spiritual journey, there can be dissatisfaction, which can be good or which can be bad. So, dissatisfaction makes us want to move forward. That is good.

But the dissatisfaction becomes a perpetual sense of guilt or frustration or unworthiness. That’s not healthy. So, why am I… I want to grow spiritually.

So, dissatisfaction, it can be good if it inspires us to grow. But three things, if it leads us to guilt. Why don’t I have so much spiritual hunger? Why am I not more serious about life? Or it leads to feelings of frustration.

In dissatisfaction, frustration is much deeper. Frustration when nothing is working, I just don’t know why am I here, what am I doing over here? Or that leads to feelings of insecurity. Maybe there is something terribly wrong with me, that’s why.

Maybe I will never grow spiritually. No. We will grow.

Our spiritual growth is the formation of a relationship. It will happen in its own way. Sometimes when we are chanting, we have to focus on Krishna.

Now, or sometimes, if you chant, like in this image, once I was not in focus, my mind said, let me be seriously. Then suddenly, I had this… I was looking at myself from above, you know, am I trying to control my mind and focus on Krishna? Am I trying to control my mind and push it towards Krishna? Or am I trying to control Krishna and push him into my mind? So, the thing is that it will happen in space. So one aspect of… If we are not the whole, we are not God, we are not the supreme, we are the servants of God, then we should also accept that we don’t have control over how fast we will spiritually grow.

We need to accept the ways in which we are growing. We can seek more. But that should not lead to resentment.

That should not lead to strong negative emotion. Either towards God, towards ourselves, or towards the whole process itself. Growth happens naturally.

So, just like a child is not going to grow up overnight. It will also grow up naturally.