SB 01.15.19 – Humble remembrance of our excesses in our relationship with Krishna lets him break the wall between us

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here arjuna is remembering his own excesses in his intimate relationships with krishna they would joke with him but now he’s saying how when he was dealing with krishna so intimately shaiya just as friends or brothers they practically live together eat together sleep together shaiyas and shaiya would sit together sometimes krishna and arjuna when they were in their palace even in the court they would sit together on the same throne and of course when they were in their private chambers they would sit and talk so they would lie down together sit together vikartana atana means walking in the forest vikartana means sometimes they would talk about their own prowess and sometimes the kshatriya ethos is such that kshatriyas get inspiration by speaking about their own valorous acts and also about their capacities for doing valorous acts in the future bhojna they should they would eat together in this way they were almost like one person when the pandavas are exiled in the forest and at that time krishna comes in kamyavan to meet the pandavas and at that time he’s so angry he tells krishna he tells arjuna that actually i am narayan and you are nara and the two of us are inseparable we are intimately united if somebody hurts me that person hurts you that person hurts me and there is just no way that we can be separated so they are so intimately united that sometimes arjuna is remembering that oh friend he would say vipralabdha means i would misbehave so when say krishna would speak about his own valorous capacities then arjuna would teasingly say oh you are very truthful when actually he intended to say that you are just bragging you cannot do such things now as he’s remembering he’s thinking how foolish i was this is the supreme lord and he’s so merciful to me that he’s relating so intimately with me and instead of cherishing his intimacy i foolishly minimized him and yet sometimes when we criticize a person or minimize a person that person becomes angry and half goes away but if that person really loves us then he overlooks that uh intimacy and excess within the intimacy and still continues to love us so he’s saying that and he used two examples just as a one friend tolerates a friend but as he’s giving this example he thinks no actually krishna was the supreme lord and it is inappropriate for me to think of myself as his friend although of course they are friends arjuna feels over here because of the intimacy of their relationship that his attitude of friendship with him may be presumptuous and therefore he says the lord is the father of all living beings and i am one of his child now actually krishna and arjuna never had a father-child relationship but still when arjuna is aware aware of the divine position of krishna at that time naturally he feels is that is a more appropriate relationship and then he says say hey so say hey he tolerated it all he’s so great that sometimes a great the greatness of a great person is known not just by how that great person does great things but the greatness of a great person is also known by how that person deals with small things and small people so arjuna is saying that although i had no right to minimize krishna but his greatness is such that even with a small like me he tolerated it but still although on one side he is appreciating krishna’s greatness he is chastising himself what kind of misdirected mentality did i have in this context it’s an offense the sin of offending the supreme lord by minimizing him so the bhagavad-gita uses the word anagha for arjuna because arjuna one of the many very words meaning of the word arjuna is one way straight arjavam is a quality of a brahmana so arjuna never committed any sinful activities but here he’s thinking agham oh he does not think that oh krishna called me anagha therefore i am no he says agham i have committed the offenses of disrespecting krishna and how inappropriate it was my behavior and yet how merciful was krishna’s behavior and actually this kind of consciousness is ideal for intensifying a relationship with krishna often we think oh how nicely i am practicing devotional service and how little krishna is reciprocating with me i have done so many services i have done so many austerities i have made so many sacrifices so nicely i followed the principles of bhakti and yet i don’t have any intimate experiences of krishna i don’t have any any mystical experiences or spiritual visions is krishna really reciprocating with me even when i try to pray or chant my mind keeps wandering what is krishna doing for me this sort of attitude creates a wall between us and krishna because we are focusing on our own qualifications and qualities and glories and not on krishna’s glories and that actually is a lack of krishna consciousness so yes from the point of view of what people in the rest of the world are doing the commitments that we offer to krishna in our devotional service may seem a lot the most people barely spare a few thoughts for god during their lives we may think that we may in comparison to that be spending a substantial amount of time for krishna but the same time when we compare with the standard of love which is exhibited by the devotees of the lord and even when there is love in the material world the way uh say one person becomes attracted to another as compared to that we can say that you know we really have very little love for krishna and we have a long way to go and the more we think that we have a long way to go the longer we go because that humility enables us to access krishna’s mercy humility breaks the wall between us and krishna and allows him to pull us closer to him and that’s how we make rapid spiritual advancement so rather than demanding krishna’s intimacy from us rather than demanding uh intimate experiences of krishna and complaining why those experiences don’t come if you can remember oh actually even my sadhana right now is so distracted there are so many ways in which when krishna personally manifests as the holy name i am distracted even offensive and yet krishna is so kind it tolerates and overlooks my offenses and he allows me to serve him and this thought will enable us to move closer and closer to krishna rapidly till we too can come to a level of intimate sweet intense supremely relishable loving exchanges with krishna as arjuna is having thank